Neuyako_The Meaning of Love (Last chapter)

Chapter 6

Disclaimer: I do not own any character of Majin Tantei Nougami Neuro manga
Warning: There is slightly OOC for Neuro's character

Neuro came back to the office and find Yako still in her position where he left her before. You have already rest enough. Neuro take a staple from the nearest table and throw it to her head. That staple wake Yako up, "aw!! It hurts, Neuro!"

Neuro is smiling when heard it, Yako has already developing habit to blame him every time someone or something attack her suddenly. There was a time when she got attack while walking alone, her attacker grab her hand from behind and twisted her arm, and she shout like automatically, "Neuro!! It hurts!" When she found out he is not Neuro, rather than panicked and frightened, she feel embarrassed for called her attacker Neuro. So she kicked him and run as fast as she could. She arrived in the office with red face and panting, and got forced to tell Neuro the incident while got tied upside down and knives threw at her.

"Geez, can't you wake me up normally?"

"That was what I am doing normally", Neuro said it with the smiling face Yako come to hate so much.

"Did you mean romantically?" Neuro take Yako's head so that they face each other closely.

"What?" Yako is not even fully awake, so she is thinking that maybe this is dream.

"You said, you love me before you passed out"

"No, I wasn't"

"Yes, you were"

Neuro bring her face even closer, demand the explanation. Okay, the next headline title should be the former high school detective dig her own grave. "Well, what's wrong if I said it?"

"Did you mean it as romantic love?" 

"I, I, don't know", usually Yako didn't have a problem to face his demon's eyes directly, but this time for some reason it's hard to keep staring at Neuro.

"Tsk, if you don't know! Then, who would?!" He released her, and she is crawling to the couch and catching her breath secretly. "Why you got angry?"

"You, and your words are bothering me"

Yako is thinking a while, then ask him, " what do you think?"

"Are you seriously asking me?" 

That's right, he is the demon who don't understand human. "Why you were asking, then? I mean, it doesn't impact you in anything"

After a long pause he say,"would you leave me?" 

"What..?" 

"Some human do something extreme to make sure their heart in secure, and you, human rather choose your lover rather than friend" 

"I am seriously don't have any idea what are you talking about"

"You! And your unbrain head" neuro trying to smash Yako's head with his hand once again.

"Why I would leave you?" 

"Because you love me...?" 

"Then, I supposed to stay near you right?" 

"If it is romantic love then, you would demand me to love you back, slug! But if you acknowledged that it is impossible then you would leave and found another to secure your heart. If it is not romantic love, then you would leave me when you find your romantic love" Neuro no longer smash her head, but still hold it to make her face him.

"First, I don't understand why I speak my feeling for you with you." But, there is nothing normal when you get in touch with creature from hell after all. "But, just get real. Would you just leave me alone if I leave you?" 

"Keep on dreaming, Yako. Of course there is no way I would leave you alone."Neuro tighten her head a little.

"See? There is no problem right?" Oh, great. Now I am saying that I do willingly become his slave and prisoner.

"But, I would much appreciate it if you are do it happily than being forced to"

"...why...?"

"It irritated me when you are unhappy" neuro said it while tighten his hand.

"Well... right now, I am kind of, unhappy"

"No, you should be happy when I do this, disgusting masochistic sow" Neuro smiling at her cheerfully.

"Now, you just irritated me more!" 

"So, you will leave me?", Neuro asked her with his scariest innocent face.

"No, I won't!" 

"...seriously...?" Neuro bring his face closer and searching trait of lying in her face.

Yako stop breathing when Neuro's face only about a few centimeter from hers. "Yako, answer me..."Yako even could feel his breath through her face, it's smell like leftover cigarette's smoke. Well, at least now she know she could breathing just fine. Now, if only she could thinking clearly then she could answer him. "Yako..." now their face already past each other and Neuro's breath and low voice right now go straight to her right ear. "I... I, won't.. leave..", Yako is trying hard not to lose her mind and catching her breath.

"Oh, good then." With that, Neuro leave Yako who has red face, weak legs, and breathing hard.

"Oh, by the way..." Neuro talk from behind Troy, "I think it is romantic love, from the symptom you are having right now it is clearly that you are lusting for me."

"Wha, what..??" Yako who luckily fell down into sofa back then still can't think clearly.

"It means you are indeed a disgusting masochistic sow", Neuro once again show her his cheerful smile.

"I, I'm not!!" 

"Well, if you do a nice job maybe I will satisfied your perverted thought of me once in a while", Neuro has already got back to his reading. While Yako who is still confusing about the whole conversation just keep curse herself stealthy. Stupid! Maybe I am indeed masochistic for in love with this bastard!

Neuyako_The Meaning of Love (chapter 5)

Chapter 5

Disclaimer: I do not own any characters of Majin Tantei Nougami Neuro manga
Warning: This could be a slightly OOC for Neuro's character

"What about her?" 

"Is the detective in love with someone?", Aya has smile in her eyes when she said it.
Neuro let out a sigh before say, "as I thought, this is impossible" he stand up and almost leaving, but Aya stop it "wait!"
"Is there something happen again between both of you?"
Neuro pause and turn around "what do you mean again?"
"Ah, once in the past. You also come to see me, after that I found the detective in the slump"
"Slump?"
"I mean, she was in really low energy. She didn't eat anything, and when came to school she only lean back her face to the table all day."
"Oh, my... what a sight it was", Neuro say it with gleam in his eyes.
"Maybe she would stay like that if I didn't come to see her"
"You came? How?"
"Oh, my song could control people now, I thought you already know about it"
"Well, I don't know it could effect human until that degree", once again Neuro amazed by Aya's ability.
"So, I kind of worry about her" 
"Ah, it's nothing like that." Neuro waver for a moment whether to tell her or not, "She said she loves me"
"Eh?" 
"Ah, to be precise. She said she think She loves me, and she said it while she was unconcious" 
"Was she drunk?" 
"No"
"Then why she was unconcious?" 
"....lack of sleep", Neuro answer it after a long pause.
Aya found something is suspicious, but don't want pry to much, "She is a warm and pure heart girl. She is loved by many people, that's why She could be like she is right now."
Neuro is starting to get bored again, but bear it a little when remember that this human woman could control another human with her voice. 
"I think, I could understand why she could in love with you."
Neuro come back to his seat, she finally gain his interest again.
"The detective used to talk about how she wanted to get recognize from you, how she was afraid she would fail your expectation, and when you're gone, she said she want to keep being detective because that was you left for her, so that when you came back both of you could be together again."
"Well, I think my training is worth it" Neuro said it with smile behind his gloved hand. 
"But, I don't know whether it is romantic love or not."
Neuro's smile is disappeared as he looked at her sharply.
"You know, love between lover, some called it romantic love."
"What's the different?" 
"Well, include of what I mentioned before, romantic love usually be together much longer than family or friends. Usually people choose lover rather than friends. Children also leaves their parents to live with their lover in general."
This remind Neuro when she was dating Higuchi, she often met with him. He usually doesn't care about what is she doing, but if it become hassle to his meal it would be another story. Well, I guess the one who have the answer is the the person in question it self.

Neuyako_The Meaning of Love (chapter 4)

Chapter 4

Disclaimer: I do not own any character of Majin Tantei Nougami Neuro manga

Neuro too focused of the newspaper and almost forgot about Yako's head in his hand.

"...you...", Yako tried to answer Neuro's question. After got grab so tightly, she almost lost her conscious and said what is in her mind or may be what is her feeling.

"Eh?" Neuro gave her attention back to Yako, loosing his hand a little so that she could give him a clear answer. "What is it about me?"

"....I love... you..." after that the detective lost all of her consious. 

"...Yako..?", Neuro was confusing, he didn't grap it hard enough to kill her of course, and he suddenly remember that, the exhausted could make human weaker and She didn't get sleep because of the yesterday case which is almost killed her because Neuro came late to the crime scene. So she is sleep deprived, exhausted mental and physical. That's why his abuse got bigger impact than usual. He released his grab and catch Yako's unconscious body, no need to abuse her when she couldn't react to it, specially when she is already so weak. But, still he wasn't gonna act gentle too. So rather than put her in sofa, Neuro only caught her so that her body won't hit the table but, then just released her body slowly to the floor as she was. He almost went back to Thor when remembered her last words before pass out 'I love you', "oh my, I must grap her head to hard. That's why you had the delusion.." Neuro then realized he spoke alone, got annoyed he pinch Yako's cheek softly, softly for Neuro's standard. Then come back to Troy. 

Neuro sat down behind Troy while reading the newspaper and news in the internet or at least, he was trying to. But, Yako's sentence keep bothering him, What did she mean by it, and the fact that he can't ask her immediately is agitated him more. Waking her up is not the best option because it wouldn't be wise to make he weaker slave in sleep deprived when he got a new case later. And, for some reason he didn't want to ask her. Despite, judging of her reaction before she also wouldn't answer it. He knew her last sentence is because of her lack of conscious and the need to relieve the pain. He was trying to ignore it, but then he remembered something that Yako said before, "You won't understand the feeling of lost the people you love", that is the first time he got so mad about her. Not because of those but because the things she said after, "...it would be better if I never meet them... or you..!!" Yako always had the habit to push him away every time she cried, so it's kind of made him a little relieve when she promised him not to cry anymore. Since when that she had that habit, she wasn't like that when he saw her crying. Right, back then he is also got urge to abuse the one that made Yako cry, officer that killed her father. But, on a second thought anyone who is crying is annoying after all. Well, thinking about it is useless. When something happen then it means to happen, right. No, after thinking about it again, it irritated me after all. Maybe I could found another human who excellent in human's mind and body. 

Neuyako_The Meaning of Love (chapter 3)

Chapter 3

Disclaimer: I do not own any character from Majin Tantei Nugami Neuro manga.

[The former "high school detective"] 

-that's the big title of newspaper that Yako read before.-

 [After 2 years of the case in the airplane that almost killed her, this time Katsuragi Yako solved another case that involved of her own safety. Even though, she is constantly in danger she had said that she will keep doing this job as long as she could. Many rumours said that she did this because of her first case which is the death of her own father by the police officer. That very first case is the reason why she don't trust the government officer and trying to make sure that no one would experienced the same thing as she had. When we tried to confirm this rumour to the detective herself. She said that even though her father's death has a connection of the reason why she keep doing her job, the actual reason is her promise to someone. When we tried to pursue the issue of that particular someone, she just smile and said that it is a secret between them. She also tried to stay away from the topic by saying that she is also like this job, because she could meet and help many people, and keep making other reason so that we don't push the topic into that particular person anymore.

So, we tried to investigate more about this particular person. There are a few candidates who could be that person, one of them is the deceased Sasazuka Eishi who had died during six case, but from the people who close to them said that even thought they was quite close and often solved the case together. Sasazuka Eishi always want Katsuragi Yako to avoid danger and live as a normal teenage girl;

 Another one that we assumed is her late father but, that thought quickly disappeared after realize that Katsuragi Yako is only a normal teenage girl before her father death; 

Another candidate is Godai Shinobi, vice president of the company that have relation with Katsuragi Yako's detective office. He got into the candidate list because of they are often spot to be together out of the office. The vice president even often spotted went to her office personally. But when we tried to confirm it he just shove us out after shout that I am not that monster;

 Another candidate is her mother, but she said that she has never asked her to do that. She even sometimes wondering about it too; 

We even got Aya Asia as our candidate, because although she is one of the people that got into jail by Katsuragi Yako. She is the only criminal that the detective often visit in jail.Unfortunately, althought Aya said that She is really respect the detective, even feel grateful for solve her case. She said that she is not the one, but when we almost left she said that the person must be him. But, we can't pursue about it anymore. So, we got the assume that the person is a man or a lover. When we were waiting for the last candidate, we tried to guess that may be almost all of our candidate know about this person but still want keep him hidden for some reason; 

Higuchi Yuya who got into our list because of his history with the detective. They had solve the case together, was against with each other together, even went dating for 2 year before broke up almost 2 years ago, for the note he corrected us that it is 1 year and 4 months ago. So, when we met him we had our high expectation, but he said that he will never broke up with her if he is that person. 

We then asked her, if "he" is her lover. His answer really suprised us, he indeed said that we have to ask it with the detective herself, but he also said that "he" always protect her, that's why she never afraid of the danger she would face. When we still don't have the answer about that person, we got another question in our mind "Why Katsuragi Yako, who is still in high school when she started it, is going as far as face the danger, even though he protected her it is still so dangerous for a young girl, just because, her promise, to that person?"]

Neuyako_The Meaning of Love (chapter 2)

chapter 2

Disclaimer:I do not own any character of Majin Tantei Nougami Neuro manga.

"What about her?", even after the full explanation about love that he was listening. Neuro still can't understand what was Yako mean back then. 

"...I think, it's love", Yako said it suddenly breaking the usual silent that is going on in the office. They just came back after the case earlier, and because the demon is in the good mood after had his stomach full. The young detective was having her rare blissful time in office while sitting on the sofa and reading the newspaper.

Her soft statement caught Neuro's attention, while he is not too fondly of human's feeling and mind. He is always pay attention of everything that Yako did. After all, he didn't want to miss any change of the creature that he is maintaining, not after the 3 years of separating. He took the newspaper that she read before so suddenly and made Yako almost choke her fifth slice of strawberry shortcake, "Neuro! You suprised me!!" She took her bottle water and drink to calm her down. "What were you reading before?", ask Neuro with the sharp eyes.

"Eh? Only some article about yesterday case", for some reason, yako's face become red.

"Oh, ho. Are you finally realize your narcissistic trait for your disgusting self?", Neuro had pleasure of every word he said to his slave and also to the outcome that she gave him.

"You, why you always so brilliant to abuse me verbally?", Yako almost get used of the verbal abuse or the harsh words that people said about her, mostly because of what Neuro said to him is much worse. But, after Neuro come back eventually she got agitated by his words again. 

"Why? You prefer the physical abuse? I didn't train you to be such a masochist, Yako", Neuro still talking with such smile in his eyes.

"No, no, no, no!! of course not!!", like other harrasment case of Neuro, he always success to break her defend and made her panic by words before he eventually harass her body. 

"Then, which is you think is love?", Neuro was asking with his hand is grabbing yako's heart painfully.

"Eh, you heard me...!!!??", whether of getting used of Neuro's harassment or embarrased of her own thought. Yako still could defend her self in this situation. 

But, rather than answer her, instead he tighten his grab. "It hurts, hurts!! Neuro stop it!". 

Neuro had already read the article, but didn't understand what was Yako mean at all.

"AKU" -chapter 2-

"Aku" melihat ke arah di mana laut dan langit bertemu, suara ombak yang berdesir membuat aku berpikir apakah hubungan antara si wanita dan gadis seperti itu? Seperti laut dan langit yang sebenarnya tidak pernah bersatu tapi kelihatan melebut menjadi satu ketika dilihat dari kejauhan. Dan sebenarnya "aku" juga tidak pernah yakin akan keberadaan mereka sebenarnya ataupun apa yang sebenarnya mereka pikirkan. Tapi, semakin lama semakin terasa bahwa keberadaan mereka seperti lukisan abstrak yang tidak akan pernah bisa dimengerti oleh logika. Karena hal-hal seperti, ketulusan si gadis kecil yang begitu murni ataupun kepicikan si wanita cantik yang begitu rumit tidak akan bisa dimengerti jika muncul dari seorang "aku".
Ketulusan dari si gadis kecil terkadang sering membuat "aku" tertawa, karena meskipun si gadis kecil mengetahui bahwa dia hanya sedang dimanfaatkan ataupun ditipu oleh orang lain, "gadis" tetap saja memberikan dan melakukan apapun bagi orang yang dianggap berharga olehnya. Karena "gadis" sama sekali tidak mengharapkan apapun ketika dia melakukan sesuatu, bahkan dia merasa sangat senang dan bahagia ketika dia bisa melakukan sesuatu untuk menyenangkan orang-orang di sekitarnya, walaupun hal itu akan merugikan dirinya sendiri. Hal-hal seperti ini yang membuat "aku" terpaksa untuk mengurung si gadis kecil di dalam kastil dan memberikan kekuasaan penuh terhadap "aku" pada si wanita dewasa. Si wanita dewasa akan berusaha keras agar tidak ada seorang pun yang bisa mendekati si gadis kecil agar "aku" tidak terluka. Karena "aku" hanya sebuah media bagi mereka berdua yang sangat rentan dan mudah rusak dan hancur jika tidak dijaga dan diawasi oleh si wanita dewasa.
Ketika si wanita dewasa mengambil alih "aku", maka si wanita dewasa akan bersikap sangat dingin dan ketus pada orang-orang di sekitarnya. Si wanita dewasa hanya mempedulikan dua hal selain dirinya sendiri yaitu, "aku" dan si gadis kecil. "Wanita" akan melakukan apapun hanya untuk melindungi si gadis kecil, walaupun itu berarti melukai orang-orang yang berharga bagi si gadis kecil ataupun membuat mereka membenci "aku". Si wanita dewasa bahkan sering kali tidak membiarkan si gadis kecil mengintip dunia di luar kastil sekalipun agar "gadis" tidak bisa melihat bagaimana kejamnya "wanita" memperlakukan orang-orang yang berusaha untuk melihat si gadis kecil. Tapi, bukan berarti tidak ada seorang pun yang tidak pernah bertemu dengan si gadis kecil lagi. Terkadang, si wanita dewasa membiarkan si gadis kecil bertemu dengan orang-orang yang sangat berharga dan dipercaya oleh "aku", tapi tentu saja si wanita dewasa akan memperhatikan dan mengikuti segala gerak gerik orang itu selama mereka bermain dengan si gadis kecil. Begitu melihat hal yang sedikit saja mencurigakan, si wanita dewasa akan langsung mengembalikan si gadis kecil ke dalam kastil dan menghapuskan orang tersebut dari daftar "aku".

Walaupun si wanita dewasa punya kemampuan manipulasi yang tinggi, ada kalanya si wanita dewasa tidak berkutik menghadapi orang-orang tertentu yang tidak berpikir menggunakan logika mereka, di saat seperti itu si wanita dewasa akan membiarkan si gadis kecil mengambil alih. Bagi orang-orang yang lebih mengandalkan hati mereka,si gadis kecil akan bagaikan matahari yang bahkan bisa melelehkan musim dingin yang membekukan sekalipun. Karena tidak akan ada seorang pun yang hatinya tidak akan tercabik cabik jika melihat wajah sedih si gadis kecil.

"Aku" berdiri di depan cermin, di mana si gadis kecil dan wanita dewasa saling bertatapan. 
"Kenapa tidak ada yang bisa mengerti kita?", gadis kecil terisak-isak lalu kembali menatap wanita dewasa yang melihatnya dengan tatapan sedih.
"mungkin karena kita berdua berbeda".
"Berbeda?" 
"Ya, karena kau dan aku berbeda. Jangan menangis lagi, itulah kenapa aku selalu menyuruhmu berada di dalam saja. Jangan keluar lagi, di luar berbahaya"
"aku lelah, apa sebaiknya aku tidur?"
"Ya, tidurlah. Kau tidak perlu bangun lagi."
"Untuk selamanya?" 
"Untuk selamanya" 

Neuyako_The Meaning of Love

The Meaning of Love 

chapter 1

Disclaimer:I do not own any character of Majin Tantei Nougami Neuro manga.
This story is fanmade about how Neuro trying to find more about human through Aya Asia. 

"Human always exaggerate about it, saying that 'I can't live without him' or 'She is all I need'. In reality, it's not like that. Actually, we, human could live without the one we loves as fine. It's just... It won't be the same anymore."

The demon just stare blankly as if he doesn't listen anything that the woman said. But, Aya know that he is listening. If not, he will just left her already. So, she continue again,"To put it simply, it's like between living for life to the fullest and living just to exist"

"Not in your case, I guess", the demon reply for the first time.


Aya startle a little and without realizing it show him a sad smile, "it is the same, actually. Well, my case is... too complicated for someone like you to understand".

The demon realize that this woman know that something is a bit off with himself, but don't pursue the issue anymore."What about her?", he finally trying to stop going around the circle and go straight forward the main problem.

Aya smile, this time a genuine smile. Finally he spoke about the real issue.
She is a little worried when she saw him come to visit her again. She even went as far to go visit the young detective out of jail to solve the problem between them, so she really worried if something happen and make them drift apart again. 

...........................................................................................

When she appeared, he only asked her to sit politely, after that for the first ten minutes, the assistant's detective just stared at her. Although, she know from the detective's stories that her assistant is extraordinary but, she could sense something is different about him this time. So she tried once again, "is there anything I can help?" 

"She said that you can control people mind with your song, and captivated their heart by it"

"Well, not exactly like that. But, if I could make the melody that resonating in their brain then I can fool their brain to do what I command them." She tried to make it sound as scientific as possible, since she know that is what he prefer. 

He looked quite satisfy with her answer, so he made another statement, "another thing that could trick the brain and disorder the mind and heart is love." 

She suddenly remember what the detective said about her assistant long time ago 'Neuro made a statement that I have to explain rather than asked about it directly' two statement from him is enough for Aya to make a conclusion. So, he once again come to know something about the detective's heart and mind. "Well, not really disorder it. More like, mind can't comprehend what is the outcome of the brain usually do logically. So, people who is in love always walk to where their heart swing" 

The assistant looked at her with a bored face. So, Aya continued again, "People sometimes do something too extreme to make sure their heart feel secure without caring what will be the sequence is, which is not usually what the mind do logically"

For a moment, the assistant looked confused while staring at her, but then he stared at her with his normal eyes again. Then Aya understand that this is gonna be her one man show with her monologue about love. Well, if this could help both of them then why not.

"There is couple of case that people die of broken heart, what I mean by broken heart is when their heart is not getting what they want not the literally meaning of heart that broken. But, that is only in some rare case. Even if you do really feel a physical pain in your chest when you broken heart. But, it is only a symptom of complication by brain. It's the same when we see fatamorgana, it's not there but the brain trick us that it is exist." Aya stop and waiting for his reaction, still the same silent. 

"Love is not only exist between living things, it can be exist for other things too. Like in my case, I have my love for singing. While I am singing, my heart is full. I mean, I feel satisfied as if my life really has meaning. Ah, but I guess you understand that kind of love." 

Because he didn't deny it, she took it as aggreement. She is silent for a while, thinking how she can make him understand about love between human.
"Love between human, can take different form depend of the individual itself. There is love between family, friends and lover. But, the love that usually take disorder of mind and heart in general is love between lover. Because love between lover consist of jealousy, possesiveness, lust and dominating not only caring and affection."

This time, he changed his position into more comfort position as he lean back to the seat. She took it that this is the topic that he is into, maybe she could pursue more about this.

"There are many who try to make definition about love between lover, such as, if the five of your sense direct you into someone; if you can't live without him; she is all you need to keep living; the light in your life; someone who could make you feel at home; someone who make you understand the meaning of life and many others" Aya pause a moment to take a breath, "when I personally think that it is depend of what the person it self thinking and going through. I think the outcome of the love itself is the same."
"Human always exaggerate about it, saying that 'I can't live without him' or 'She is all I need'. In reality, it's not like that. Actually, we, human could live without the one we loves as fine. It's just, won't be the same anymore"

"Me" -chapter 1-

For other people, they change from children and become grown up, but not for me. In my case as the time pass by I don't grown up or become an adult, I am multiplying and become two different creatures. One is the sweet little girl that could draw a smile on your face by looking at her, and the other is the beautiful lady that could turn you into submissive just by  her staring. They are "I" (me), "I" that is multiplying because couldn't stand in the reality, couldn't stand living alone, but doesn't trust anyone at all. This is not an extraordinary story, this is only about one plain girl who is living her usual life. The story about "me".

If there's anyone who is wondering that when "me" become two, even the lady would struggle to answer it. Maybe, when there's no one for "me" while "I" got bullied by her classmate, or maybe when she's only be able to feel the abusive from her distress mother. "I" would quietly accept everything, perhaps that's the reason why "me" couldn't grown up, instead become two and the lady appeared. or maybe, when "I" almost lost my heart by the time pass by as she's learning all about the malevolence of everyone around her, the heart of the young lady that turning into black set apart some of a little pure light. That pure light later take a form of a little girl where the young lady still had a pure and white heart that fill of kindness and love. 

Well, how "I" become two doesn't really matter because what does matter is how "I" could have a normal life when there's two "me". The hardest thing to for "me" is when She want to sleep, the little girl always want to play when the lady always want to close her eyes. The lady always try to taking care of "me" and she know if "I" didn't sleep then "I" would got sick. But, the little girl always want to play or talk, and it made "me" hard to sleep. It's so hard to take care of "me" when even the lady had a hard time to handle the little girl. That's why, "I" made a castle tower and keep the little girl inside. The lady and "me" keep the little girl inside the castle not because they want to restrain the little girl but, we just want to keep her for the harsh of the world. The little girl is too kind and naive so she is too easy to be used by others, and usually in the end the lady is the one who will sort out the leftovers problem. Truthfully, the lady doesn't mind to resolve everything for the little girl, what she mind is if something happen to the little girl. Because for the lady and "me", there's nothing more scary than the disappear of the little girl. Keeping the little girl inside the castle tower and making the lady guard it from outside is how "I" prevent it.

We could say that the little girl is the princess for "me", damsel in distress who need protection and affection. On the other side, the lady is the knight for "me", femme fatale who will work hard to fulfill the necessity of "me" also the resolver of every obstacle. Like the other princesses and damsels in distress of every story, the little girl is also so weak and fragile. She doesn't have any skill or power, not even a cute face or confidence. The only thing that the little girl has is her charity, the infinity of her sincerity also the absolute faith for other people. The little girl would believe you from her deepest heart although you just met her. That's why, the little girl always in danger and bring harm to "me". on the other hand, the lady has everything that woman's need. A beautiful face, perfect posture and graceful manner that will made every woman envy and every guy longing for her. The lady has talent for almost everything, but specialise to manipulate people to work for her and made "me" living easy and comfortable. There's only one thing, the lady doesn't have feeling or heart. We could say the lady's heart is as dark as the forest at night. Sometimes, this fact made "me" scared What if the little girl aware of this, the delicate little girl would be in indisposition and wear out. And, if it happened subsequently there's no way the lady be pardoned by "me".

"Me" -Prolog-

For other people, they change from children and become grown up. But for me, it split up become two. One is the naive, kind little girl and the other is the crude,but smart beautiful lady. They live inside me and they protect each other and loves each other. Well sometimes the lady has to be the knight to protect the naive princess but the other time the kind little girl will give light to the darkness in the beautiful lady's heart.
"As long as we have each other, we're gonna be okay" as the beautiful lady pat the little girl's head softly. The little girl hug the lady tightly. They don't anyone except each other. If there's a person they can depend on it's only her. The girl and the lady look at each other faces. They have the same eyes, the same hair and the same creature. The only significant different of them is their expression. The little girl has soft and kind smile in her face, but the beautiful lady has arrogant smile but very graceful attitude. Both of them looks very different if you looj at the whole. The little girl doesn't look cute at all, but she looks so lovely and as if her pure soul could be seen from outside as she smile so kindly. And the lady even if she has a very beautiful face and graceful attitude but her dark heart could be sense from outside, her expression is so stiff and has no mercy to anyone who will hurt her or her other self.

"AKU" -chapter 1-

Jika bagi orang lain tumbuh menjadi dewasa atau menjadi tua seiring dengan berjalannya waktu. Tetapi, untukku tidak. Seiring bertambahnya waktu "aku" tidak tumbuh dewasa ataupun menjadi dewasa. Tapi "aku" bertambah, dan "aku" menjadi dua sosok yang semakin lama semakin berbeda antara satu dengan yang lain. Yang satu adalah gadis kecil yang manis yang bisa membuatmu tersenyum hanya dengan melihatnya, dan yang satu lagi seorang wanita dewasa yang membuatmu bertekuk lutut walaupun hanya dengan lirikannya. Mereka berdua adalah "aku", "aku" yang bertambah karena "aku" tidak mampu menerima kenyataan yang ada, tidak sanggup menjalani hidup sendiri, tapi juga tidak mampu untuk mempercayai siapapun lagi. Cerita ini sebenarnya bukanlah kisah yang luar biasa, kisah ini cuma cerita tentang seorang gadis biasa yang menjalani hidupnya yang biasa. Kisah tentang hidup "aku".
Jika ada yang bertanya sejak kapan "aku" menjadi dua. Mungkin bahkan si wanita dewasa juga sulit untuk menjawabnya, mungkin saat tidak ada seorang pun yang bisa menolong "aku" ketika dia di bully oleh teman teman sekelasnya, atau mungkin juga ketika dia menerima kekerasan dari ibunya yang stress. "aku" hanya bisa diam dan menerima segalanya, mungkin itu yang membuat "aku" tidak bisa tumbuh dewasa, tapi malah menjadi dua dan saat itulah si wanita dewasa lahir. Atau mungkin, ketika "aku" yang sudah mulai kehilangan hati nurani yang dimilikinya seiring dengan berjalannya waktu dan mengetahui segala kebusukan hati semua orang yang dikenalnya, hati wanita dewasa yang mulai menghitam menyisihkan sedikit cahaya yang masih suci dan murni dan berpisah dengan si wanita dewasa dan saat itu cahaya suci itu menjadi wujud gadis kecil, wujud di mana si wanita dewasa masih mempunyai hati yang putih, murni dan suci juga penuh dengan kasih sayang dan kebaikan.
Well, bagaimana "aku" menjadi dua tidak begitu penting. Karena yang terpenting adalah bagaimana "aku" bisa menjalani hidup layaknya wanita normal saat "aku" ada dua. Saat tersulit bagi "aku" adalah saat "aku" ingin tidur, "gadis"selalu saja masih ingin bermain sedangkan "wanita" selalu saja ingin menutup mata. "wanita" selalu berusaha menjaga tubuh "aku" dan dia tahu jika "aku" tidak tidur, maka "aku" akan sakit. Tapi, "gadis" selalu saja ingin bermain ataupun bercerita sehingga "aku" sulit untuk tidur. Sungguh sulit untuk menjaga "aku" ketika "wanita" juga kadang tak berkutik di hadapan "gadis". Karena itu, terkadang "aku" mengurung si gadis kecil di dalam sebuah kastil. Sebenarnya "aku" bukan ingin membatasi gerak "gadis", tapi "aku" sama seperti si wanita dewasa "aku" hanya ingin menjaga si gadis kecil. "gadis" terlalu lugu dan naif, dia terlalu baik pada semua orang tanpa tahu sifat buruk dari semua manusia. "gadis" selalu saja dimanfaatkan oleh orang lain, dan biasanya "wanita" yang harus membereskan kekacauan yang tersisa. "wanita" sama sekali tak keberatan untuk membersihkan masalah yang dibuat oleh "gadis". Hanya saja, "wanita" takut kalau "gadis" akan terluka. Karena tak ada yang lebih menakutkan bagi "aku" dan "wanita" daripada kematian dari si gadis kecil. Oleh sebab itu, "aku" membuat menara kastil untuk "gadis" dan "wanita" yang berjaga di luar. Mungkin, bisa dibilang si gadis kecil adalah seorang putri bagi "aku", damsel in distress yang harus dijaga dan diawasi. Sedangkan si wanita dewasa adalah ksatria "aku", femme fatale yang akan berkerja keras untuk semua hal yang "aku" inginkan, juga kartu as untuk semua masalah yang ada.

Seperti semua putri dan damsel in distress yang ada di cerita dan film film yang lain, si gadis kecil juga lemah dan tak berdaya. Si gadis kecil sama sekali tak punya bakat ataupun kekuatan, bahkan tak punya wajah yang cantik ataupun rasa percaya diri. Satu satunya yang dimiliki si gadis kecil hanyalah hati yang sangat baik, ketulusan yang tak terkira juga rasa percaya yang kuat pada orang lain.  "gadis" akan mempercayaimu dengan sepenuh hatinya walaupun kau adalah orang yang baru saja ditemuinya. Karena itu, si gadis kecil selalu saja dalam bahaya dan dia juga selalu membuat "aku" terluka. Di lain pihak, si wanita dewasa punya semua hal yang diinginkan oleh seorang wanita. Wajah yang cantik, tubuh yang indah dan sikap anggun yang akan membuat iri semua wanita dan membuat semua pria sulit memalingkan wajah. "wanita" berbakat dalam banyak hal, dan bisa membuat semua orang bekerja kerasa dan berusaha hanya untuknya. Sehingga "aku" bisa menjalani hidup dengan lebih mudah. Hanya saja, si wanita dewasa tidak mempunyai perasaan ataupun nurani. Bisa dibilang, hati si wanita dewasa sangat gelap segelap hutan di malam hari. Hal ini yang terkadang membuat "aku" takut, bagaimana jika sampai si gadis kecil mengetahui apa yang "aku" wanita dewasa lakukan, si gadis kecil yang lemah pasti akan mudah jatuh sakit dan mati. Dan, jika itu terjadi maka "aku" juga tidak akan bisa memaafkan si wanita dewasa.

"AKU" - Prolog-

Jika bagi orang lain pada umumnya, mereka berubah dari anak anak dan beranjak dewasa. Tapi, bagiku itu membuatku terbelah menjadi dua. Yang satu adalah seorang gadis kecil yang polos, dan baik hati. Sedangkan yang satu lagi adalah seorang wanita cantik yang cerdas tapi licik. Mereka berdua hidup di dalam "aku" dan mereka melindungi dan mencintai satu sama lain. Kadang - kadang, si "wanita" harus menjadi ksatria yang melindungi si putri kecil yang polos, tapi ada kalanya si "gadis" kecil yang baik hati akan memberikan secercah cahaya dalam kegelapan hati wanita cantik itu.

"Selama kita memiliki satu sama lain, kita pasti akan baik-baik saja", kata si wanita dewasa yang cantik sambil membelai kepala si gadis kecil dengan lembut. Si gadis kecil memeluk "wanita" dengan erat. Mereka tidak mempunyai siapa-siapa kecuali satu sama lain, satu satunya orang yang bisa mereka andalkan hanyalah dia. "Gadis" dan "wanita" saling menatap satu sama lain dan terlihat bahwa mereka mempunyai mata, rambut, hidung dan bentuk yang sama persis. Yang membedakan mereka antara satu dengan yang lainnya adalah ekspresi mereka. "Gadis" punya senyum lembut yang tulus di wajahnya, sedangkan "wanita" punya senyum angkuh namun terlihat anggun. Keduanya akan terlihat sangat berbeda jika dilihat secara keseluruhan. "gadis" tidak terlihat manis sama sekali tapi dia begitu menyenangkan untuk dilihat seolah olah jiwanya yang murni terpancar keluar ketika dia tersenyum dengan tulus. Dan, "wanita" walaupun terlihat cantik dan bersikap anggun, tetapi jiwanya yang kelam dapat terasa dari luar, ekspresinya sangat keras dan sama sekali tak punya belas kasihan bagi siapapun yang melukai "aku" ataupun "gadis".