"Me" -chapter 1-

For other people, they change from children and become grown up, but not for me. In my case as the time pass by I don't grown up or become an adult, I am multiplying and become two different creatures. One is the sweet little girl that could draw a smile on your face by looking at her, and the other is the beautiful lady that could turn you into submissive just by  her staring. They are "I" (me), "I" that is multiplying because couldn't stand in the reality, couldn't stand living alone, but doesn't trust anyone at all. This is not an extraordinary story, this is only about one plain girl who is living her usual life. The story about "me".

If there's anyone who is wondering that when "me" become two, even the lady would struggle to answer it. Maybe, when there's no one for "me" while "I" got bullied by her classmate, or maybe when she's only be able to feel the abusive from her distress mother. "I" would quietly accept everything, perhaps that's the reason why "me" couldn't grown up, instead become two and the lady appeared. or maybe, when "I" almost lost my heart by the time pass by as she's learning all about the malevolence of everyone around her, the heart of the young lady that turning into black set apart some of a little pure light. That pure light later take a form of a little girl where the young lady still had a pure and white heart that fill of kindness and love. 

Well, how "I" become two doesn't really matter because what does matter is how "I" could have a normal life when there's two "me". The hardest thing to for "me" is when She want to sleep, the little girl always want to play when the lady always want to close her eyes. The lady always try to taking care of "me" and she know if "I" didn't sleep then "I" would got sick. But, the little girl always want to play or talk, and it made "me" hard to sleep. It's so hard to take care of "me" when even the lady had a hard time to handle the little girl. That's why, "I" made a castle tower and keep the little girl inside. The lady and "me" keep the little girl inside the castle not because they want to restrain the little girl but, we just want to keep her for the harsh of the world. The little girl is too kind and naive so she is too easy to be used by others, and usually in the end the lady is the one who will sort out the leftovers problem. Truthfully, the lady doesn't mind to resolve everything for the little girl, what she mind is if something happen to the little girl. Because for the lady and "me", there's nothing more scary than the disappear of the little girl. Keeping the little girl inside the castle tower and making the lady guard it from outside is how "I" prevent it.

We could say that the little girl is the princess for "me", damsel in distress who need protection and affection. On the other side, the lady is the knight for "me", femme fatale who will work hard to fulfill the necessity of "me" also the resolver of every obstacle. Like the other princesses and damsels in distress of every story, the little girl is also so weak and fragile. She doesn't have any skill or power, not even a cute face or confidence. The only thing that the little girl has is her charity, the infinity of her sincerity also the absolute faith for other people. The little girl would believe you from her deepest heart although you just met her. That's why, the little girl always in danger and bring harm to "me". on the other hand, the lady has everything that woman's need. A beautiful face, perfect posture and graceful manner that will made every woman envy and every guy longing for her. The lady has talent for almost everything, but specialise to manipulate people to work for her and made "me" living easy and comfortable. There's only one thing, the lady doesn't have feeling or heart. We could say the lady's heart is as dark as the forest at night. Sometimes, this fact made "me" scared What if the little girl aware of this, the delicate little girl would be in indisposition and wear out. And, if it happened subsequently there's no way the lady be pardoned by "me".