The existence

Have you ever thought about the things that would happen after your death?
Not the things like heaven and hell or the afterlife, because none of them matter right now. Things that matter when you are still alive are the things that would left after you died.

Just try to imagine, what would happen after you die?
Is there anyone would mourn for your death? Or they would relieve that you finally gone?
Or even would anyone realise that you are not there anymore?
Is your existence even matter to them? Or it's only a facade that would serve as socializing?
Would they missing you? Or they would be happy that you had leave?

How you imagine your death can make a picture of how you live your life. Is it a good one or just a very boring life that would never remain in other hearts and mind.

Is my life and existence have any meaning??

the Salvation

The salvation is different to each person.
It could be a person, a thing, words, or even an act. For me, it is a one good story.

For someone like me, who use "sleeping" as my identity. A very good story that accompany me to the dark forest is something could save me from the nightmare.
But, for people who use a living being as their salvation. How could you survive when your salvation die?
That is the reason my salvation will never be a living being. But, their heart who constantly loving me could be mine, as long as, it will last forever. But, sometimes we forgot that forever is a very long time. That we underestimate that word.

Each one of living being on the earth should at least having one in their heart and mind. It could be God, it could be dream or anything. Because the salvation is something that could make us feel alive. A real life.

So, what's yours? Have you decide it yet?

Neuyako_The Meaning of Love (Last chapter)

Chapter 6

Disclaimer: I do not own any character of Majin Tantei Nougami Neuro manga
Warning: There is slightly OOC for Neuro's character

Neuro came back to the office and find Yako still in her position where he left her before. You have already rest enough. Neuro take a staple from the nearest table and throw it to her head. That staple wake Yako up, "aw!! It hurts, Neuro!"

Neuro is smiling when heard it, Yako has already developing habit to blame him every time someone or something attack her suddenly. There was a time when she got attack while walking alone, her attacker grab her hand from behind and twisted her arm, and she shout like automatically, "Neuro!! It hurts!" When she found out he is not Neuro, rather than panicked and frightened, she feel embarrassed for called her attacker Neuro. So she kicked him and run as fast as she could. She arrived in the office with red face and panting, and got forced to tell Neuro the incident while got tied upside down and knives threw at her.

"Geez, can't you wake me up normally?"

"That was what I am doing normally", Neuro said it with the smiling face Yako come to hate so much.

"Did you mean romantically?" Neuro take Yako's head so that they face each other closely.

"What?" Yako is not even fully awake, so she is thinking that maybe this is dream.

"You said, you love me before you passed out"

"No, I wasn't"

"Yes, you were"

Neuro bring her face even closer, demand the explanation. Okay, the next headline title should be the former high school detective dig her own grave. "Well, what's wrong if I said it?"

"Did you mean it as romantic love?" 

"I, I, don't know", usually Yako didn't have a problem to face his demon's eyes directly, but this time for some reason it's hard to keep staring at Neuro.

"Tsk, if you don't know! Then, who would?!" He released her, and she is crawling to the couch and catching her breath secretly. "Why you got angry?"

"You, and your words are bothering me"

Yako is thinking a while, then ask him, " what do you think?"

"Are you seriously asking me?" 

That's right, he is the demon who don't understand human. "Why you were asking, then? I mean, it doesn't impact you in anything"

After a long pause he say,"would you leave me?" 

"What..?" 

"Some human do something extreme to make sure their heart in secure, and you, human rather choose your lover rather than friend" 

"I am seriously don't have any idea what are you talking about"

"You! And your unbrain head" neuro trying to smash Yako's head with his hand once again.

"Why I would leave you?" 

"Because you love me...?" 

"Then, I supposed to stay near you right?" 

"If it is romantic love then, you would demand me to love you back, slug! But if you acknowledged that it is impossible then you would leave and found another to secure your heart. If it is not romantic love, then you would leave me when you find your romantic love" Neuro no longer smash her head, but still hold it to make her face him.

"First, I don't understand why I speak my feeling for you with you." But, there is nothing normal when you get in touch with creature from hell after all. "But, just get real. Would you just leave me alone if I leave you?" 

"Keep on dreaming, Yako. Of course there is no way I would leave you alone."Neuro tighten her head a little.

"See? There is no problem right?" Oh, great. Now I am saying that I do willingly become his slave and prisoner.

"But, I would much appreciate it if you are do it happily than being forced to"

"...why...?"

"It irritated me when you are unhappy" neuro said it while tighten his hand.

"Well... right now, I am kind of, unhappy"

"No, you should be happy when I do this, disgusting masochistic sow" Neuro smiling at her cheerfully.

"Now, you just irritated me more!" 

"So, you will leave me?", Neuro asked her with his scariest innocent face.

"No, I won't!" 

"...seriously...?" Neuro bring his face closer and searching trait of lying in her face.

Yako stop breathing when Neuro's face only about a few centimeter from hers. "Yako, answer me..."Yako even could feel his breath through her face, it's smell like leftover cigarette's smoke. Well, at least now she know she could breathing just fine. Now, if only she could thinking clearly then she could answer him. "Yako..." now their face already past each other and Neuro's breath and low voice right now go straight to her right ear. "I... I, won't.. leave..", Yako is trying hard not to lose her mind and catching her breath.

"Oh, good then." With that, Neuro leave Yako who has red face, weak legs, and breathing hard.

"Oh, by the way..." Neuro talk from behind Troy, "I think it is romantic love, from the symptom you are having right now it is clearly that you are lusting for me."

"Wha, what..??" Yako who luckily fell down into sofa back then still can't think clearly.

"It means you are indeed a disgusting masochistic sow", Neuro once again show her his cheerful smile.

"I, I'm not!!" 

"Well, if you do a nice job maybe I will satisfied your perverted thought of me once in a while", Neuro has already got back to his reading. While Yako who is still confusing about the whole conversation just keep curse herself stealthy. Stupid! Maybe I am indeed masochistic for in love with this bastard!

Neuyako_The Meaning of Love (chapter 5)

Chapter 5

Disclaimer: I do not own any characters of Majin Tantei Nougami Neuro manga
Warning: This could be a slightly OOC for Neuro's character

"What about her?" 

"Is the detective in love with someone?", Aya has smile in her eyes when she said it.
Neuro let out a sigh before say, "as I thought, this is impossible" he stand up and almost leaving, but Aya stop it "wait!"
"Is there something happen again between both of you?"
Neuro pause and turn around "what do you mean again?"
"Ah, once in the past. You also come to see me, after that I found the detective in the slump"
"Slump?"
"I mean, she was in really low energy. She didn't eat anything, and when came to school she only lean back her face to the table all day."
"Oh, my... what a sight it was", Neuro say it with gleam in his eyes.
"Maybe she would stay like that if I didn't come to see her"
"You came? How?"
"Oh, my song could control people now, I thought you already know about it"
"Well, I don't know it could effect human until that degree", once again Neuro amazed by Aya's ability.
"So, I kind of worry about her" 
"Ah, it's nothing like that." Neuro waver for a moment whether to tell her or not, "She said she loves me"
"Eh?" 
"Ah, to be precise. She said she think She loves me, and she said it while she was unconcious" 
"Was she drunk?" 
"No"
"Then why she was unconcious?" 
"....lack of sleep", Neuro answer it after a long pause.
Aya found something is suspicious, but don't want pry to much, "She is a warm and pure heart girl. She is loved by many people, that's why She could be like she is right now."
Neuro is starting to get bored again, but bear it a little when remember that this human woman could control another human with her voice. 
"I think, I could understand why she could in love with you."
Neuro come back to his seat, she finally gain his interest again.
"The detective used to talk about how she wanted to get recognize from you, how she was afraid she would fail your expectation, and when you're gone, she said she want to keep being detective because that was you left for her, so that when you came back both of you could be together again."
"Well, I think my training is worth it" Neuro said it with smile behind his gloved hand. 
"But, I don't know whether it is romantic love or not."
Neuro's smile is disappeared as he looked at her sharply.
"You know, love between lover, some called it romantic love."
"What's the different?" 
"Well, include of what I mentioned before, romantic love usually be together much longer than family or friends. Usually people choose lover rather than friends. Children also leaves their parents to live with their lover in general."
This remind Neuro when she was dating Higuchi, she often met with him. He usually doesn't care about what is she doing, but if it become hassle to his meal it would be another story. Well, I guess the one who have the answer is the the person in question it self.

Neuyako_The Meaning of Love (chapter 4)

Chapter 4

Disclaimer: I do not own any character of Majin Tantei Nougami Neuro manga

Neuro too focused of the newspaper and almost forgot about Yako's head in his hand.

"...you...", Yako tried to answer Neuro's question. After got grab so tightly, she almost lost her conscious and said what is in her mind or may be what is her feeling.

"Eh?" Neuro gave her attention back to Yako, loosing his hand a little so that she could give him a clear answer. "What is it about me?"

"....I love... you..." after that the detective lost all of her consious. 

"...Yako..?", Neuro was confusing, he didn't grap it hard enough to kill her of course, and he suddenly remember that, the exhausted could make human weaker and She didn't get sleep because of the yesterday case which is almost killed her because Neuro came late to the crime scene. So she is sleep deprived, exhausted mental and physical. That's why his abuse got bigger impact than usual. He released his grab and catch Yako's unconscious body, no need to abuse her when she couldn't react to it, specially when she is already so weak. But, still he wasn't gonna act gentle too. So rather than put her in sofa, Neuro only caught her so that her body won't hit the table but, then just released her body slowly to the floor as she was. He almost went back to Thor when remembered her last words before pass out 'I love you', "oh my, I must grap her head to hard. That's why you had the delusion.." Neuro then realized he spoke alone, got annoyed he pinch Yako's cheek softly, softly for Neuro's standard. Then come back to Troy. 

Neuro sat down behind Troy while reading the newspaper and news in the internet or at least, he was trying to. But, Yako's sentence keep bothering him, What did she mean by it, and the fact that he can't ask her immediately is agitated him more. Waking her up is not the best option because it wouldn't be wise to make he weaker slave in sleep deprived when he got a new case later. And, for some reason he didn't want to ask her. Despite, judging of her reaction before she also wouldn't answer it. He knew her last sentence is because of her lack of conscious and the need to relieve the pain. He was trying to ignore it, but then he remembered something that Yako said before, "You won't understand the feeling of lost the people you love", that is the first time he got so mad about her. Not because of those but because the things she said after, "...it would be better if I never meet them... or you..!!" Yako always had the habit to push him away every time she cried, so it's kind of made him a little relieve when she promised him not to cry anymore. Since when that she had that habit, she wasn't like that when he saw her crying. Right, back then he is also got urge to abuse the one that made Yako cry, officer that killed her father. But, on a second thought anyone who is crying is annoying after all. Well, thinking about it is useless. When something happen then it means to happen, right. No, after thinking about it again, it irritated me after all. Maybe I could found another human who excellent in human's mind and body. 

Neuyako_The Meaning of Love (chapter 3)

Chapter 3

Disclaimer: I do not own any character from Majin Tantei Nugami Neuro manga.

[The former "high school detective"] 

-that's the big title of newspaper that Yako read before.-

 [After 2 years of the case in the airplane that almost killed her, this time Katsuragi Yako solved another case that involved of her own safety. Even though, she is constantly in danger she had said that she will keep doing this job as long as she could. Many rumours said that she did this because of her first case which is the death of her own father by the police officer. That very first case is the reason why she don't trust the government officer and trying to make sure that no one would experienced the same thing as she had. When we tried to confirm this rumour to the detective herself. She said that even though her father's death has a connection of the reason why she keep doing her job, the actual reason is her promise to someone. When we tried to pursue the issue of that particular someone, she just smile and said that it is a secret between them. She also tried to stay away from the topic by saying that she is also like this job, because she could meet and help many people, and keep making other reason so that we don't push the topic into that particular person anymore.

So, we tried to investigate more about this particular person. There are a few candidates who could be that person, one of them is the deceased Sasazuka Eishi who had died during six case, but from the people who close to them said that even thought they was quite close and often solved the case together. Sasazuka Eishi always want Katsuragi Yako to avoid danger and live as a normal teenage girl;

 Another one that we assumed is her late father but, that thought quickly disappeared after realize that Katsuragi Yako is only a normal teenage girl before her father death; 

Another candidate is Godai Shinobi, vice president of the company that have relation with Katsuragi Yako's detective office. He got into the candidate list because of they are often spot to be together out of the office. The vice president even often spotted went to her office personally. But when we tried to confirm it he just shove us out after shout that I am not that monster;

 Another candidate is her mother, but she said that she has never asked her to do that. She even sometimes wondering about it too; 

We even got Aya Asia as our candidate, because although she is one of the people that got into jail by Katsuragi Yako. She is the only criminal that the detective often visit in jail.Unfortunately, althought Aya said that She is really respect the detective, even feel grateful for solve her case. She said that she is not the one, but when we almost left she said that the person must be him. But, we can't pursue about it anymore. So, we got the assume that the person is a man or a lover. When we were waiting for the last candidate, we tried to guess that may be almost all of our candidate know about this person but still want keep him hidden for some reason; 

Higuchi Yuya who got into our list because of his history with the detective. They had solve the case together, was against with each other together, even went dating for 2 year before broke up almost 2 years ago, for the note he corrected us that it is 1 year and 4 months ago. So, when we met him we had our high expectation, but he said that he will never broke up with her if he is that person. 

We then asked her, if "he" is her lover. His answer really suprised us, he indeed said that we have to ask it with the detective herself, but he also said that "he" always protect her, that's why she never afraid of the danger she would face. When we still don't have the answer about that person, we got another question in our mind "Why Katsuragi Yako, who is still in high school when she started it, is going as far as face the danger, even though he protected her it is still so dangerous for a young girl, just because, her promise, to that person?"]

Neuyako_The Meaning of Love (chapter 2)

chapter 2

Disclaimer:I do not own any character of Majin Tantei Nougami Neuro manga.

"What about her?", even after the full explanation about love that he was listening. Neuro still can't understand what was Yako mean back then. 

"...I think, it's love", Yako said it suddenly breaking the usual silent that is going on in the office. They just came back after the case earlier, and because the demon is in the good mood after had his stomach full. The young detective was having her rare blissful time in office while sitting on the sofa and reading the newspaper.

Her soft statement caught Neuro's attention, while he is not too fondly of human's feeling and mind. He is always pay attention of everything that Yako did. After all, he didn't want to miss any change of the creature that he is maintaining, not after the 3 years of separating. He took the newspaper that she read before so suddenly and made Yako almost choke her fifth slice of strawberry shortcake, "Neuro! You suprised me!!" She took her bottle water and drink to calm her down. "What were you reading before?", ask Neuro with the sharp eyes.

"Eh? Only some article about yesterday case", for some reason, yako's face become red.

"Oh, ho. Are you finally realize your narcissistic trait for your disgusting self?", Neuro had pleasure of every word he said to his slave and also to the outcome that she gave him.

"You, why you always so brilliant to abuse me verbally?", Yako almost get used of the verbal abuse or the harsh words that people said about her, mostly because of what Neuro said to him is much worse. But, after Neuro come back eventually she got agitated by his words again. 

"Why? You prefer the physical abuse? I didn't train you to be such a masochist, Yako", Neuro still talking with such smile in his eyes.

"No, no, no, no!! of course not!!", like other harrasment case of Neuro, he always success to break her defend and made her panic by words before he eventually harass her body. 

"Then, which is you think is love?", Neuro was asking with his hand is grabbing yako's heart painfully.

"Eh, you heard me...!!!??", whether of getting used of Neuro's harassment or embarrased of her own thought. Yako still could defend her self in this situation. 

But, rather than answer her, instead he tighten his grab. "It hurts, hurts!! Neuro stop it!". 

Neuro had already read the article, but didn't understand what was Yako mean at all.